For some odd reason, there is a certain percentage of the public that loves to hold grudges against those who they believe had done some kind of wrong upon them. Holding angst against the opposing party for a week or so is fine, but anything more than a month is simply a farce. If the reason behind the grudge relates to a certain death or even a life-changing event directly related to the person, then those grudges are justifiable. The grudge-bearer can hold these ill feelings for all they want, but they should also understand that these feelings are unhealthy for the body and mind. Sooner or later, these unwanted feelings will cause the individual more grief and a decreased quality of life, which could lead to other unwanted events like injury and death.
The only way for the grudge-bearer to gain any satisfaction is when the opposing party comes back to “apologize” for the perceived wrongdoing or suffers a devastating blow in one’s life. If the grudge-bearer percieves this apology as of goodwill, then he or she might be able to forgive the other party. However, one can simply overlook this apology as a faux means to an end, and still carry these ill feelings to the grave. By doing so, both members may clash against each other until the matter is resolved, either through compromise and mutual understanding or the permanent separation of the two parties. Separation can be done voluntarily, court martial, or by taking one’s life.
On the opposite side of the coin, the grudge could be so trivial that the supposed afflicted member could move on with life by casting away all connections with this individual and still bear minimal losses. If the opposing member offered a helping hand to the grudge-bearer with good intent and recieves retribution, then there is no reason why he or she should risk his well-being and sanity for an ungrateful person. This is espeically true when the ungrateful person happens to have little to no influence over the other person’s life. If he or she does have an integral role in one’s life, then he or she should reconsider new avenues for living one’s life or amend the current dismal issue.
In the event that the grudge-bearer has little or no impact on anybody’s life, only the one holding the grudge suffers while everyone else is enjoying the rest of their lives. The only saving grace for this individual is to learn how to forgive people and to recognize that these grudges might be a form of denial or have a relation to one’s past, traumatic or not.
All in all, these grudges must be dealt with swiftly to protect the wellbeing of oneself and surrounding public. If people want to hate without any concrete evidence, then let them be and move on with life. Nothing could be more frustrating and depressing than convincing a person who refuses to understand the current situation and watch them walk down the path of suffering.
As one begins the exploration into a new field of entertainment, one would be advised to look find the gurus of that genre and/or taste the latest hot topics and classics of the respective subculture. As one grows accostumed to the new genre, one will realize that some of these touted experts know as much as the person itself. Therefore, it is critical to develop one’s ability to accurately appraise an items worth in order to find the gems in the rough. This will take time to build up the experience just like how a wine taster must taste hundreds of different wines to know the good from the bad from his or her point of view.
Due to the accessibility of the internet, one must learn how to quickly and reliably find trusted sources, regardless of the topic at hand. Fortunately, there are several online articles that demonstrate how to use “Google” and produce the desired results.
Once one has acquired enough experience to figure out his or her preferences, he or she no longer needs to rely on other sources or opinions for those respective fields. Instead, these sources would be used as a soundboard and material for discussion. These are the true gurus who can stand on their own two feet and make an honest statement within these specialized/niche areas.
Within the past week, I have been plagued with misfortune. A friendship was lost, a console and its save data broken and corrupted, a relative died, and a car crash in the family. As we all know it, the world moves on with disregard to the woes of the individual. Sympathy can sometimes help ease the pain, but it can also aggravate the victim. Empathy is more useful in this case, since both parties can relate to each other. As much as I want to blame myself and carry these pains to the grave, I ask the victims I have done wrong to forgive me as I would for those who have done me wrong. As I see it now, I must move forward into world and learn to prevent past mistakes and misfortunes to repeat itself from here on out. I bear no grudges against anyone, for they benefit nobody except for petty self-satisfaction.
New Year New Life
My life has changed drastically since last year of December, which marked my departure from windows and entry into Linux. Fed up with windows and its cumbersome ways, I found myself in the realms of linux and created my first home in Crunchbang. Everything was snazzy and I had tons to learn. The community provided me all the basic knowledge I needed to enjoy a full linux environement without any reliance on windows.
A few months down the road, I am a regular user on the forums and IRC who helps new users find their home in linux. I even wrote two linux guides that fully explain how to setup a perfectly working linux environment. Yet, I am still amazed that I went from a GUI (Graphical User Interface) environment to an almost all CLI (Command Line Interface) environment.
As of December, I wrote another linux guide in the crunchbang forums about how to setup a conveniently functional CLI environment for Siduction with scrotwm as the default window manager. For this year (2011), I am grateful for having a PC the way I like it and the many new friends that I have found via linux.
As for the new year to come, I hope to accomplish the following.
- Enrich my nursing and linux knowledge.
- Become a better cook.
- Be a more compassionate person.
- Learn how to build a fileserver.
- Learn how to fix several things in a car.
- Learn how to maintenance my own bike.
- Make lots of money from my occupation and my hobbies
- Convert some windows adverts to linux mentors.
- Make life easier than 2011.
- Survive 2012.
150+ pages and 12 hours clinicals a week for 8 weeks is not what I had originally expected from a class that is about mothers and their babies. Even the book is about the same size of my medical/surgical book, which is about 2000 pages. In addition to this material, I have to do a careplan on both the mother and baby on the second day of clinical when I truly do not know much about the course itself. Besides the 5 hour lectures, I hope I can pull off an A in this class, since there are only 320 points in the class (3 100-point tests).
Hopefully, this class will be easier than neuropsychiatric nursing, which was absolute garbage. Most, if not all, of the tests were nothing but subjective questions. Plus, my nursing instructor was like in her own world the whole time, but still knew what she was talking about when it came to this subject.
For future reference, expect a post at least once every other week.
For the last few days, danbooru has been working at sub-optimal speed. Although the reason is unknown, I hypothesize that it might be the same reason why the server went down last time. The most likely cause could be thousands of users constantly uploading random and NSFW (pron, lolicon, etc) pictures onto the server. Another suggestion could be users who have concocted their own scraper that downloads every single picture (via filters and such) off the server, thus causing the severe bandwidth shortage. Another possible cause is through mass hotlinking, which can severely anger those who pay for server costs.
Perhaps, danbooru should have limited accounts to only uploaders (via arbitrary means) rather than allowing the whole public able to create one.
When the time is ticking down and a research paper is due, do not rely on campus librarians to direct one in the right direction. I have had multiple incidents where these campus librarians know as much as I do and nothing more. In my opinion, they are not very helpful. I was probably better off with an AskJeeves person, even though I strongly dislike that site.